Who do I want to be?

In all my vagueness of success, I have forgotten specific goals to target. Recently, I have been so obsessed with business I have not cared about health or my image and so it has taken a beating. Its alright tho, I have noticed that how my self development had come to halt and even regressed a little during past month.

 So to keep things specific I will write who do I want to be and how? Firstly,  I would to create a person that I have always wanted to be and start on that journey.

1. Confident and courageous : I am confident but not in all things, sometimes I come across as timid. There is a past related issue, some aggression but I have managed to become playfully confident for short while nonetheless...Thanks to the chess.  From now I will go further than affirmations and look for ways to optimise my confident. 
2. Intelligent and creative Scientific and systematic : On this aspect I have improved greatly,  I have worked my ass off and made my lifestyle, passion around it for me to become much more smarter than I was. Now, its time to progress into practical intelligence..such as Business acumen, Social and emotional intelligence, while developing on going progress
3. Fun, witty, great to be around : Not to be a people pleaser but I have recently, lost the sparkle towards social stuff. It needs to come back, specially with Playfully confident and fun, witty it would be brilliant combination to my core personality...who has such good energy. If were to become Fun and witty...energy around me would be super!!
4. POSITIVE and optimistic with a plan aka develop great attitude : I have improved greatly on this the recent times but at core there is still some negativity....I will need to heal it with positive and optimistic view!!! There was a book about becoming Optimistic with a plan!! (similar tone and that is how I would like to be)
5. Strategic, tactical and ambitious : I have always been ambitious but lacked the know how and belief to pull it off...I have developed in being strategic and tactical in novice way but I have tons to learn..at the end of the day, all the words a game and us players..who ever plays the best are winners.
6. Faith Belief and trust : I lack this deep belief within me, I used to have ti when I was young but lost it somewhere during the dark times....Now I will develop it, not just paper crack belief but deep Faith belief and trust that I can do anything I set my mind to 
7. Healthy and fit, care: Past month I was lazy and didn't do any workout and now my body is suffering....and it can be seen visibly by others...such same to let Ferrari of body rust!!  I need to take care of my self.
8. Proactive assertive and sharp : I need to develop more proactive attitude and approaches..STOP BEING LAZY!!!!! and BE SHARP..
9. Love and care : I need to love myself and others. Take care of my health in every aspect such as mentally, physically, emotionally etc....
10. Let go of past and BE ADAPTIVE, Be COOL:): I do have an attitude problem not in horrible way but a flaw that can lead to poor outcome and so I would like to develop RIGHT ATTITUDE. Finally, the past that is heavy...some I have let do some I haven't which is forcing me to be not adaptive!! ADAPT, THRIVE!!! LET GO OF THE BAGGAGES :)

I know you can do this! I have been too broad! Now I will think, write in very specific manner, also with goals that I can work towards and not vague terms.